Breakeven

They say bad things happen for a reason,yeah

But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding,yeah

'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving

And when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even, even, oww

So things haven't been really looking up for me and here I am, once again restless as I just cannot sleep at all and it's slowly driving me nuts. Once again. It's been like this for awhile now. At least once or twice a week I stay up like 36-48 hours or so without getting sleepy at all. I'm bit worried it might be some sign of insomnia? Staying up few days with no sleep until I'm just too exhausted and simply pass out for next 20 hours or so.

I've been going crazy trying to make sense in some things, but it's so futile at the moment. I guess this will be one more things to add to my 'baggage'. One more thing on the list of what I managed to screw over. Trust me when I say, that list is longer than necessary.

Anyway, to other more happier things!



One day at midnight I decided I should change the furniture order in my room. So I as quietly as I could manage I decided to switch the places of my desk and bed. Let me tell you it was far harder than it sounds since this whole room is size of fish bowl. Not to mention the fact there's so much crap around it was nearly impossible to move them at all. But I managed and now my room is prettier! I even have princess canopy above my bed now.

Also I lost my grip again and started to buy more stuff even if I knew I shouldn't.

Our Moment, 39,95€ at Sokos.

Don't judge me! I'll let you know the perfume smells divine and the bottle is pink with a crown-like-cap so hey, I couldn't not buy it!

35....something € at GameStop.

Ever since the beginning of the time I've been crazy about Kingdom Hearts. So when I accidentally came across this abnormality I practically ran to get it. I so totally didn't buy psp and nintendo ds just to play their appropriate kh games so shut up.

Now I must remind you of my face so you just won't forget how I look like!

Look at my adorable hairdo! So proud I actually attempted to do something new. Hair  bows and floral crowns.

There hasn't been really much to keep me going, but these two lovelies have been keeping me some company and they even let me take few ridiculous shots of them. I can't exaggerate how damn much I love people especially my friends who let me take their pictures. I have lots more, but I'll save them for later!






Today had been one of the best days of the whole damn month. For a tiny moment I actually felt like a child again. My dearest, Jenna, spent little time with me this afternoon before this whole class-tutors-bowling-and-food kinda things and it's ridiculous how much I enjoy small things like those. We just walked around, drank some tea and the best part, acted nowhere near our ages.

Playgrounds are extremely fun, especially when there's merry-go-round. Few rounds of spinning and try to keep walking on a straight line. Who in the fucking hell things that's funny? Me, apparently. Even if I almost ran into some lady and her stroller. The look on her face wasn't as amusing as my mood had been.

Simple things are the best. I'm really sad there aren't any swings anymore since it's getting so close to winter. Boo!

Leaf piles are also fun.









I'm still in-between whether to stay in my room for rest of eternity or actually go out and socialize. Hopefully I'll settle for latter since I actually like people. Well, most of the people. Shocking, isn't it!?

I'll promise to finish the damn video thingy for the next entry. Still lots of things to do— or attempt to do. I promise it will be ridiculous, it will not be funny as I'm not capable of being funny. Eh, whatcha gonna do!

So, how you doin'? ;)

Perfect Day

you'll hear me say,

Now don't you try rain on my

Perfect day,

Nothing's standing in my way

Okay, hey. I'm going to spam my face now. A lot. Why? Because I'm enjoying my extensions and my curling iron way too much.

I'm addicted to this game. Seriously. My gameloft account is 3Dstar, add me if you play! :)

10 bracelets from ebay, $3,30.

It was on sale on Anttila for 24.95€ only if anyone is interested!














Okay. Enough of gifs. I found a lovely way to wear my hair and I'm sticking to it for now.

Soo, I'm on sick leave for 2 weeks so I'm going to have time for stuff. Like today, I went out and met few friends. Took some photographs. Of my FACE
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"I will eat you."

Grumpy the Dwarf.

Wonder 5 Walks, shirt from Ebay for $9.17

The drink was Large Cinnamon Gingerbread Latte. It was DELICIOUS.

OKAY. THIS POST WAS PICTURES of my own face ONLY.(pictures of me are taken by Hilma)

 Next time I'll produce something better. Thank you and goodnight! 'till the next time!

Foolish Games

You're always brilliant in the morning,

Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee

So since youtube is being a little brat and refuses to use their embed videos as small ones for music, I abandoned the idea and now you can find the music player on the top right corner. I'll add 2 songs per post to the playlist so you won't have to listen to the same ones million times in row.

So what am I going to post today. SHIT. Like always, love, like always. I have lots of photos I want to spam you with and also my quick review of Kingdom Heart's Birth by Sleep what I just recently got myself. Also I might rant how so far I do not like Assassin's Creed III at all.

TO THE PHOTOS!!!
(These I have actually taken before I had started my school)

Next 5 are taken in August

This I decided to add here if there's any people who have never used DSLR-camera to see how the aperture and shutter speed work.

And to even more recent pictures!

These two I took when I was visiting back home during fall break.


TO THE SHIT I'VE DONE!

I was a big girl last weekend. I went to bar all alone. I swear I must have looked really pathetic sitting there alone and looking around like I was lost. But I did have quite much to drink (which most I didn't buy myself) and actually grew some balls and went dancing and met some people. It was quite nice, but when it was time to leave (it came too soon) I pretty much had to stand in wet, cold snow waiting taxi for over 30 minutes. Well, the driver was nice so yeah. I am not in hurry to go again.

It was a Halloween party so I tried to look some kind of circus freak, but I'm actually just using that for excuse to wear A LOT of make up.

So I got myself Kingdom Hearts: Birth By Sleep.

I love the series, I have always loved since the first one I got when I was around 12. Actually I love them so much that I did buy nintendo DS to play 358/2 and psp for BBS. (Bought it over year ago, bought the game last week. I THINK IT WAS ABOUT TIME.)

 And this one was a super positive surprise! The fighting style, the items, the abilities, everything. Awesome. In 358/2 the system was bit hard to grasp onto and it was kind of weird, but boy oh boy did they make BBS better. If the 3rd one is made the same way, I'll be super happy. Heck, I actually wish the system will be as similar as possible.

So, Kingdom Hearts is a series that you don't really get if you don't play all parts. Even I'm still bit lost that what is going on, so I won't be explaining the concept to you, but the game itself is wonderful and even if I hadn't played the other parts, I would have greatly enjoyed myself.

So in a nutshell, you get to play one story, in 3 different perspectives. Play one, you're like "alright", play 2 and you're starting to grasp something and while playing the third one you'll blow your mind and you get the "OH MY GOD, OF COURSE! WHY AM I SO STUPID" reaction.

And it's square enix. The damn opening scene is so god damn gorgeously done that I could watch it for the eternity. It took me 12-15 hours per character, per perspective to play it through and I'll surely keep playing to get the whole thing to 100%. It is so enjoyable.

"Oh my god, I think I might be a lesbian." Just kidding, I love Aqua.

And my absolutely favorite part is the characters. Especially Aqua and Ven. Aqua just might be first female character of KH (non-disney character that is) that I actually like and enjoy very much. She's strong, beautiful, mature and yet she's not annoying "GIRLS-DO-IT-BETTER!!!" or "girls-don't-do-it-at-all". She's woman and yet she has no need to prove that she's as good as man. 

Ven I simply love because his carefree nature. (My love with Roxas from KH2 and 358/2 has nothing to do with this.) He acts like a child he is, it makes me happy. 

Assassin's Creed III - Join or Die

Another game I had waited small forever for. Last monday, I finally went and got it. I had Join or Die -edition on hold from Game Stop and I was so excited to get it.

I had watched only the trailer. No game play videos, no anything else. I'm very strict about spoiling myself in games. I didn't want that. But I did assume I'd love the game like AC 1, 2, brotherhood, revelation.

Still packed.

So Join or Die-edition includes following: -Assassin’s Creed III retail game
- The medallion of the Assassins with its high-quality curd ladle
- George Washington's notebook revealing all the truth & secrets about the Assassins and the Templars during the American Revolution.
- 1 in-game Single Player Mission:
- Ghost of War: The tide of the Revolution turns into the Templars favor. Defeat your enemies and  unlock The Pontiac’s War Club, a powerful Native American weapon.
- 1 in-game Multiplayer Package:
- The Sharpshooter package: Unleash the Sharpshooter fury in multiplayer with 1 new character, the Sharpshooter, 1 Relic, 1 Emblem, 1 special Picture and the Title of "The Jester".

Especially the notebook is absolutely gorgeous. Next picture won't give it justice.



So I haven't played much yet around 5-7 hours (haven't been counting), but I am very disappointed so far. I fucking love Assassin's Creed series and all the other (ps3) games have been my greatest passion and joy, but this one has so far left me quite annoyed. I feel they changed too much in hope to make the game better, but in my opinion, it doesn't even feel Assassin's Creed that much anymore.

Life bars, loading screens, weapon wheel, map... Everything small has been changed to completely different. I mean, they did change some things in Revelation, but it was all better. I actually enjoy Revelation's system the best and I was hoping this one would have similar. But was I wrong.

The first few hours were horrible to play. I actually wished I didn't have to play. I wanted to quit. I NEVER have wanted to quit playing AC.

Also, the characters so far aren't doing anything for me. Ezio, Altaïr, Desmond, they're all easy to like. I fell in love with Ezio and Altaïr in first hour and I grew onto Desmond. Conner does nothing to me so far. I'm afraid I won't grow to like him as I like the others.

Only thing I really enjoy is hunting. I'd rather hunt the whole game through than actually play and that tells something when "side mission" is better than real deal.

I can't really say I hate the game yet, but so far I am really disappointed since no other AC game has ever left me so frustrated and jaded. I'll play the game through and update my feelings after that. I'm still hoping that I will love the game. Somehow.



TO THE RANT

I think I'll actually include section on my blog that I simply call "the rant". I don't promise to rant in every post, but I will rant more than enough. But I think my quick review ^ is enough of a rant for this time so no other rantings today!

FUN FACTS

I am the most horrible night-time-eater you'll ever meet. I usually get cravings for _any food_ during nights. Last night it was unbearable and the fridge was empty. So what do I do? I make the impossible, possible. I looked trough every cabin in hopes to find something eatable and I did! I found an apple.

Wasn't just any apple though, I did fry it in oil and syrup, added some cinnamon, pimpernel (? had to use dictionary for this one) and ginger. Also when done, I put them in glass and poured some ice cream on top. It was actually very tasty. I was bit surprised.

Though that didn't take away my hunger, so my search for more food continued. I found wok-vegetables in the freezer and thought... "What can I make of this since I don't really enjoy veggies without meat." Well, I made some very good sauce (in very weird measures) and added a lot of spices to the fried wok. It tasted HEAVENLY. I had to make more (made some this morning too) simply because it was so delicious. If all vegetarian food tasted like that, it wouldn't be too hard for me to change diet.



I am done for today. 'till the next time, loves!

in  the next episode, something about London.