Hair + Face + Shoes

You self destructive 

Little girl 

Pick yourself up 

Don't blame the world 

So you screwed up 

But you're gonna be ok

So I managed to do the video I promised. It was fun. Maybe I'll try adding vlog about some shit every week. If I'm not feeling too lazy.

Things are shit at the moment btw, which means I'm not going to be in the best of the moods, but let's hope it'll pass soon enough. Just trying to get through is all I'm aiming for.

Few people have been complimenting my current hair color and as I'm pretty fond of it myself, I decided to show how I'm keeping the color up. I'm sure there are way easier ways to do this, but this is cheaper. Kinda.  I was out of my dye/conditioner combo so I had to make some more since my hair went so light. (And this was only because my hair was too light and didn't match my extensions, otherwise it would have been pretty.)

So here's before and after.

So here is it! Took like half a bottle of conditioner and in normal circumstance I'd tell you to stay as far away from any kind of shampoo while mixing colors, but the silver shampoo actually works and doesn't ruin the whole thing. Only spoonful of the La Riché's color as it's so thick and bright.

Have some face and other stuff.

So I was in need of winter shoes. Last year I managed without, but I decided I didn't want to keep freezing my toes off. The only criteria I had was they needed to be warm. And cute. So I decided to get cheap version of Moon Boots!

Of course everyone else would have kept wonderful sales pitch about getting UGG's, since they're the "best and warmest winter shoes", but holy hell I'm not getting them. Not now, not ever. I simply loathe those shoes. I bet they're nice and warm and stuff, but yeah. Not made for me. If you wear them, go nuts, but my opinion stands.

Okay, I'm done for the day. See ya in week or so!

Breakeven

They say bad things happen for a reason,yeah

But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding,yeah

'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving

And when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even, even, oww

So things haven't been really looking up for me and here I am, once again restless as I just cannot sleep at all and it's slowly driving me nuts. Once again. It's been like this for awhile now. At least once or twice a week I stay up like 36-48 hours or so without getting sleepy at all. I'm bit worried it might be some sign of insomnia? Staying up few days with no sleep until I'm just too exhausted and simply pass out for next 20 hours or so.

I've been going crazy trying to make sense in some things, but it's so futile at the moment. I guess this will be one more things to add to my 'baggage'. One more thing on the list of what I managed to screw over. Trust me when I say, that list is longer than necessary.

Anyway, to other more happier things!



One day at midnight I decided I should change the furniture order in my room. So I as quietly as I could manage I decided to switch the places of my desk and bed. Let me tell you it was far harder than it sounds since this whole room is size of fish bowl. Not to mention the fact there's so much crap around it was nearly impossible to move them at all. But I managed and now my room is prettier! I even have princess canopy above my bed now.

Also I lost my grip again and started to buy more stuff even if I knew I shouldn't.

Our Moment, 39,95€ at Sokos.

Don't judge me! I'll let you know the perfume smells divine and the bottle is pink with a crown-like-cap so hey, I couldn't not buy it!

35....something € at GameStop.

Ever since the beginning of the time I've been crazy about Kingdom Hearts. So when I accidentally came across this abnormality I practically ran to get it. I so totally didn't buy psp and nintendo ds just to play their appropriate kh games so shut up.

Now I must remind you of my face so you just won't forget how I look like!

Look at my adorable hairdo! So proud I actually attempted to do something new. Hair  bows and floral crowns.

There hasn't been really much to keep me going, but these two lovelies have been keeping me some company and they even let me take few ridiculous shots of them. I can't exaggerate how damn much I love people especially my friends who let me take their pictures. I have lots more, but I'll save them for later!






Today had been one of the best days of the whole damn month. For a tiny moment I actually felt like a child again. My dearest, Jenna, spent little time with me this afternoon before this whole class-tutors-bowling-and-food kinda things and it's ridiculous how much I enjoy small things like those. We just walked around, drank some tea and the best part, acted nowhere near our ages.

Playgrounds are extremely fun, especially when there's merry-go-round. Few rounds of spinning and try to keep walking on a straight line. Who in the fucking hell things that's funny? Me, apparently. Even if I almost ran into some lady and her stroller. The look on her face wasn't as amusing as my mood had been.

Simple things are the best. I'm really sad there aren't any swings anymore since it's getting so close to winter. Boo!

Leaf piles are also fun.









I'm still in-between whether to stay in my room for rest of eternity or actually go out and socialize. Hopefully I'll settle for latter since I actually like people. Well, most of the people. Shocking, isn't it!?

I'll promise to finish the damn video thingy for the next entry. Still lots of things to do— or attempt to do. I promise it will be ridiculous, it will not be funny as I'm not capable of being funny. Eh, whatcha gonna do!

So, how you doin'? ;)

All kinds of crap!

Sorry guys, this post will be in English only as I'm feeling super lazy toda— Tonight.

So. What's up, guys? I've been at my dad's for few weeks now and I'm dying to get back to school already. Yes, I am that bored. Which is why you get all kinds of random shit that has happened to me during this summer!

My dearest little sweetheart visited me during June about week after my birthday and gosh did I love seeing her. We drunk little wine and then went out to party and even if we decided we'll have much more fun at home, we got the bar owner to buy us drinks. The free Sex On The Beach tasted a lot better than the one we paid for!




After her visit I took a train to Kotka as well and kinda crashed her family's trip to their cabin. What can I say. I'm just so crazy about her, I'll just never get enough! After that we decided to go and see the Helsinki Pride 2013 and even if we were bit late for the park party, we had much fun. Lots of dancing and... In someones case.... Kissing gay guys. Don't worry, it looked great!





Seriously I haven't been up much and I certainly haven't taken much pictures but you can have these few I managed to take during June. These were taken simply so I could show my father how aperture and exposure worked, since he claimed my old DSLR camera for himself. I used Canon EF 50mm f/1.8 II lens. It's small, light and cheap. I simply adore it.

Few pictures of my face as well even though I have changed my hairstyle twice since that.

I'm going to end this post to a best friend tag we did with Anni. We decided to create a youtube channel of us doing lots of stupid shit together and we came to an agreement to do mostly any kinds of challenges people throw at us. So if you want us to do something stupid, throw us a comment. We'll do anything as long as it's legal.




Alright, I promise to cook up something more exciting and interesting for you to guys read next time but 'till that... I'm out!

Birthday Depression || Synttärimasennus

Okei. Tällä kertaa vähän henkilökohtasempi postaus, jolla ei oikeen oo mitään tarkotusta.

Synttärit alkaa lähestyä ja se jos joku saa miettimää elämää taaksepäin. Pienenä oli niin kamalan kivaa kun joka synttärit sai pyytää paljon kavereita kylää ja kaikilla oli sulle kivoja lahjoja. Ja herkkujakin oli niin älyttömästi. Ainakin omalla kohdalla on käynyt niin, että mitä vanhemmaksi tulee, sitä huonommat synttärit on ollu.

Ite rakastan kaikkia juhlia ja oonki yrittäny järkätä mun kavereille mahdollisimman kivat synttärit, varsinki ku tullaan täysi-ikään. Yhdelle ostin reilun 100€ lahjan joka oli kooltaan noin metri kertaa metri, yhdelle järkkäsin yllätyssynttärit jonka teema oli pinkki. Ostin kaikki lautaset, mukit, pillit, serpentiinit, ilmapallot, boolit väri väriin. Pinkkiä. Ja tässä vaiheessa pitää muistuttaa, että en oo, enkä ikinä oo ollut hirveen varakas ihminen, joten mitä annan muille on todellakin multa iteltäni pois.

Kun ite täytin 18, muutamat hyvät kaverit kävi mun kanssa kiinalaisessa syömässä ja sain muutaman lahjakin, mutta kun iltaan mentiin jäi porukka mielummin puistoon kun lähti mun kanssa baariin. Yksi näistä lähti mun kanssa kiertelemään, mutta väsy tuli sille tosi nopsaan ja reilusti ennen kello kahta lähdettiinkin meille nukkumaan. Petyin kyllä vähän.

Opin vihaamaan synttäreitä. Siis omiani. Muille aion tulevaisuudessakin yrittää järkätä upeet 18 v. pippalot, koska ne on vaan kerran elämässä.

Kaksikymmentä päivää niin täytän 19. Viimeinen teinivuosi lähtee käyntiin. En aio pitää minkäänlaisia synttäreitä. Aion olla koko päivän kotona kera viinipullon ja vietän iltaa yksinäni. Käyn ehkä saunassa ja kuuntelen musiikkia. Lakkaan kynnet ja katon elokuvia. Käyn ajoissa nukkumaan.

Pitkään aikaan en oo osannu tarvita ketään tai mitään. Siihen oppii ja silloin huomaa, että kun ei odota eikä vaadi mitään ei voi pettyä.

Normaalisti oon ihminen joka toimii järjen eikä tunteen pohjalta ja niinä harvoina päivinä kun annan tunteen viedä saankin paljon palautetta. "Mikä vittu sulla taas on?! "Miks oot tollanen?!" "Voitko lopettaa ton?" Omat tunteet pinoon ja piiloon, omat epävarmuudet sängyn alle ja esitä, ettei mikään koskaan ollutkaan vialla. Älä turhaan odota, että kukaan viittisi edes yrittää ymmärtää sun lähtökohtia.

Tästä kaikesta syyttäkäämme synttärimasennusta! Vuosi lähempänä kuolemaa! :D


Kaikki kuvat: tumblr.com ja quickmeme.com



  Alright, this time bit more personal post. And it holds no meaning whatsoever.

It's almost time for my birthday and that if something makes me think back my life. As kids it was the best thing ever to invite lots of friends over and they all brought you nice presents. And of course the sweets and cakes and all. Well, in my case the older I've gotten, the worse my birthdays have been.

I love parties. I've tried to throw as nice birthdays for my friends as I could, especially when they're hitting adulthood. For one of my friends I bought a gift that was enormous and cost bit over 100€. For another I threw a surprise party with a theme. Pink. Everything from balloons, plates and straws to punch and cocktail sticks. All pink. And I have never been that rich so everything I do for others is less for myself.

When I turned 18, few of my good friends went to eat chinese food with me and I also got few presents too, but when the evening arrived, only one of my friends could go to bars with me. I guess it was nicer to get drunk at the park. Anyway, I got home before 2 am since my friend felt tired so we had to leave. Of course I was bit disappointed.

I learnt to hate birthdays. My own, I mean. In the future I'm still going to try throwing the best parties when my friends turn 18 because that happens only once in lifetime.

20 days and I'll turn 19. It's my last teenage year. I'm not gonna throw any kinda party for myself. I'm going to stay home alone with a vine bottle and spend the night alone. Maybe I'll go to sauna and listen to music. Maybe I'll paint my nails and watch movies. I'll go to bed early.It has been long time since I actually needed someone or something. After you learn that you'll notice that if you don't expect anything, you won't get disappointed!

Usually I'm a person who listens to common sense and rational thoughts rather than what my feelings tell me and during those rare days when I let my feelings guide me, I get lot of feedback. "What the fuck is wrong with you again?!" "Why are you like that?" "Stop being like that." Gather your feelings and hide them away,  insecurities under the bed and act like nothing has never been wrong. Don't assume anyone's gonna even try to understand your reasoning.

Let's blame birthday depression for this post! One year closer to death! :D

Pictures: tumblr.com & quickmeme.com